im sad but optimistic

I felt your burn in the back of my throat

Harder than any liquor you could have ever stolen from your parents bathroom closet

I used to think that I liked your hands around my neck, gripping my cheeks, stealing my breath

Believe me I told myself so, that roughness can be love if done enough

That pain can become pleasure in the hands of someone you trust

My hive pried open and harvested by a man who didn't deserve my honey

I'll do anything to forget what loneliness feels like

Or to forget that im difficult to want

I’ll find love someday, among the stars

Maybe beneath the cool blue waves

And if the sun decides to explode before it finds me

Well I guess i'll be dead anyways