All i've known about love comes from you, and thats why im such a mess

----Hi, I wrote this poem in September and I've been debating on releasing it for awhile now. I wrote this after my ex and I broke up, I know its DEFINITELY not my best work but it does have raw emotion in it and it really deserves to be released since it was one of the first poems I ever wrote!! so be kind to it please <3

How unfair

How unfair it is that I still feel so trapped

I haven't felt your kiss in nearly 3 months

But I still can feel my strawberry bubblegum tongue on the inside of your cheeks

Your kiss that marinated my lips and turned my brain into white noise

I hate the way that you changed me

My heart now aches for the taste of love that you couldn’t provide

I should've never let you cradle the most vulnerable parts of me

When those were the parts of me that you stole

My light, My love for the color of the earth

My love for the rising and the falling of the tides

But most importantly you took away my ability to love myself

I was a blank canvas on a dusty easel

I was a canvas that you took and painted your own image of me onto

I became the most damaged but ethereal parts of you

I spent too many nights with tear-stained cheeks wondering

How you could be so destructive and toxic

Yet at the same time you could hold me so soft and tender

And when I finally left

I can promise you i’ve never seen walls so high

Because for once I cut myself open

I allowed myself to appear so weak in front of you

And you made me sew myself back up again

And it fucking hurt, it still fucking hurts